Almost

I was here.

Waiting for the perfect timing.

Saving all my patience medications.

But when the time came for my chance. It was almost. only almost...



It was like a sound story of a young boy. Been destined to be a king. But was given a challenge to look for his queen. He must look for the mythical tree where it's fruits bear a beautiful princess.

He traveled for long on a strange forest, full of mist, danger and unexpected surprises.
But with his might. He found the tree.

There he wait.

For hours.
Days.
Weeks.
Months.

Until the tree lit; and bear a big fruit. Inside lies a figure of a lady. Then the boy heard a voice from the inside.
Hi?... are you the one?
Maybe... but I have traveled for long to find you..
 I have waited also. For the one who will wait for me. Who will have my heart and take good care of it.

They talked as if they know each other for so long. Shared and waited for the time to see each other and have their forever.

The boy was so happy. Felt like it was love. Felt it....

He assumed.
He was willing to wait.
He decided to say everything when the right time comes. When the fruit was already ripe. when the perfect time comes.

He was sincere.
He really was.

But since it was getting dark. The boy, from his long journey felt tired, took some sleep.

The morning came...
The fruit fell. It was empty.

He searched. There he saw some footsteps. he knew it was the lady from the fruit. From the footsteps that lies saps that must've come from the fruit.

He ran.

Walked.

Took few step.

and stopped.


From a distance he saw two figures. Holding each others hands. One was a guy, who seems like another seeker. One was a lady who seems familiar. The same figure he saw from the fruit.

On that moment he stepped back... He was speechless.

How will he react?
He never tell his real intention.
He just assumed, that the fruit knew it all.
He was too careful not to go on too fast.

But it was fast enough to steal her fruit's heart. Of someone he did not expect. Of someone he don't know. Of someone he doesn't know.

But it was then almost.
almost forever.

But still he was willing to wait.
Maybe the lady from the mysterious fruit also felt what he felt. That it was mutual. That it was real.

But then again who knows... therefore it was almost...

almost.

Daily dumb: yeah..I did it... again (that awkward moment)

That moment when you feel like the world and the people around you seems so tall... so big...

and you were just a tiny ant playing in the corner.

that moment when the tape of life runs the humor out of it, through YOU.

Those moments are so embarrassing, just like for example, you were talking negative things about someone, and then suddenly you notice that the main topic of your talk is just sitting behind you..

that moment when you picked the phone, heard the conversation, messed it up, and said "hello, whom do you want to speak ma'am", and then suddenly you noticed the telephone bearing the "CONFERENCE MODE" on its screen and your boss was just smiling at you.. and you have just interrupted a personal conversation.

that moment when you where in a hurry because your late on a meeting and then when you arrived in front of the VIP's, you bump into the glass door and make a stunning scene. That moment when silence has been embracing you from the moment you first step into the room up to the moment you sat on the long table.

THAT moment when your friends are laughing at you and you laughed with them... not knowing that you are the one they are laughing at.

that moment when your higher ups has something funny on their face while they are on angry mode and you cant resist that funny feeling as you glance at her again and again... ow that moment..

that very moment when you feel so embarrassed....

and the very best moment is when you get stacked at it and continue repeating the same moment , like a broken CD that screeched though the player's pin causing it to play over and over again.

well on these moments all you can say is "yeah, i did it again"

But see how it works; those moments bump into you to simply remind you that you are a person. You cry, laugh, feel jealous, be angry, be embarrassed, felt awkwardness over and over again and whatsoever.. those things makes up your entirety as a human. As such in a movie, those moments are needed to spice up the scene, humor puts the color out of it when all the repetitions of color seems to flow up the turning spectrum. *

Daily dumb: fortunate over unfortunates

Time will come when you suddenly realize that somehow.. life will give you a series of unfortunate events. Tremors, worries, anger, pain, tantrums, jealousy and whatsoever that you will not really expect. When you get driven by this negativities, surely. you will be knocked down. And even worse, you will hate yourself, or your mere existence.

But come on, its not just you whose been on this road. Its not just you whose been experiencing these mess. You're not even the only person living in this world. Don't feel like you've been carrying all the loads. Feel like being emo? Go on. Feel like sharing your blues on the world? Go on... But don't make this unfortunate event beat you.

But look into the brighter side. if you did pass this series of unfortunate events in the road your taking; the path will shine. you will see that somehow, if you keep your faith up. At the end you will say that these unfortunate events makes you fortunate. Fortunate enough to win against the dark road, bearing the light embedded within you. These will complete your life's own moving bringing the peak, that moment where viewers will feel the heartbeat, the thrill, but will make the movie even better, will make a mark over the movies existing within the movie house.

The elixir of happiness

There was once an island where happiness became the ultimate treasure. One of the endless journey that seekers strive to find is the mystic elixir of happiness hidden beyond afar; where no one but the "chosen" will be able to find. 

Some spent the rest of their lives battling against each others arms, killing countless creations, stealing innocent lives. 
Some seeks to become the "chosen". Some speaks as if they were; fearlessly pretending to be the one-up to whom everyone looks up to find. 

The seekers searched the entire island. Some where even destined to become seekers, spending the rest of their lives looking for the hidden elixir. 

On the other side of the island lies a stranger, an outcast of the villagers, a mushroom-man popped one day. He was a kid of innocence, dumb, curious yet pure and tender. In his chest lies a riddle: "one that truly seeks shall find". 

Off before dawn, before the rain stops pouring, one of the seekers find the stranger.From his disappointments, darkness caught his entire soul. At glance he accused the stranger a thief-of something so important. He pulled out his dagger and chased the lonely stranger.

The stranger cried for help. No one replied. Until a roar from afar screeched the whole island. a dazzling light outburst from the strangers chest. the riddle turned out into a flashing light. Of a sudden, the stranger disappeared.

That moment, the seeker realized that he met the one-embedded with the elixir. That for the rest of his life, he will bear the burden, the curse of not knowing, the incantation that will jail him forever-his conscience. Of the time he saw something different, that time; if and only if he was at his self, if he wasn't taken by his insecurities and worries, if he was at his fullness, he would know. He was trained to seek for the elixir-of whatever form that it may take. But at the grasp of time, of a split second, he missed.

How will the seekers find the stranger. How will the seekers know what form would it become. The quest continues... The journey to success in looking for the elixir on that island will never end... not until they realize that the elixir is always with them... 

Thank God were not one of the villagers. Thank God we have the freedom to choose what we will become. Thank God we know what happiness is-contentment, simplicity, purity and love.